Gosh, as soon as I see the end of September drawing close the excitement, the fear, the uncertainty, the unknown, the memories...it all begins unconsciously creeping in.
I didn't know what the next 4 months were going to hold for us. When I say it, in light of the length other people's adoption time tables, it doesn't seem all that long. But looking back, we had no CLUE as to the difficulty and politics and misinformation we would have to get around just to give a girl a home. So many things were up in the air. It felt like the entire system was falling a part around us.
But it's all over now.
I can't believe how much has changed over the past 3 years.
I can't believe how much SHE has changed over the past 3 years.
Her hair is so long now. And I actually know how to do more than little puffs around her tiny head:)
Her smile still the same although she now has 4 gaping holes where teeth once resided.
She no longer pushes us away with that Ugandan shoulder shrug. She'll downright scream in defiance now, ha!
The protective wall she would put up in conflict isn't so thick now and can be talked down much quicker.
She has found her place in our family and is often referred to as "queen" among other Colony members.
She shows some food aversions now, whereas she used to eat every.single.thing on her plate and lick it clean. AND she'll let us know if she doesn't like it now too, which used to NEVER happen!
She is getting SO tall. She still has those long elegant arms, but her body is growing into them now.
She isn't so prone to cling to my side like she used to. Don't get me wrong, she still stays close enough to know where her family is at all times, but she will actually go out and play with cousins and friends when they are here now.
She loves parties! LOVE parties!
She isn't scared to tell someone they are wrong, even when they are right, ha!
Not only has she found her place in this family, but she is finding herself in this great big world she resides in.
I'm sure some of you are tired of the constant recollections of our past, but isn't that what mamas do? We see where we are...and then look back. Remembering the looks, the smells, the moments of sweet cuddles and the embraces after consequences, the silly little sibling squabbles, even the tough moments that bring us to our present...
because, how can we see how far we've come unless we allow ourselves to look back and see where we used to be.