Part of the anxiety and OCD curse that Zeke and I have been dispositioned with is that our minds get stuck.
This is normal for just about everyone at some time or another, but is exacerbated for someone who struggles with anxiety and/or OCD tendencies.
Yesterday the zipper on Zeke's book bag broke. The handle came completely off and the zipper itself was stretched out so that it wasn't able to be fixed. That meant that he needed a new book bag. This would be the most awesome thing for any other kid, especially since we are that family that doesn't get "new" things until our original thing no longer preforms it's intended purpose. Our kids are using their same book bag from last year and they were fine with that.
In fact, they were SO fine with it that when I went to pick Zeke up from school yesterday he was coming "unzipped" himself (see what I did there?;). He couldn't handle the fact that everything he knew about book bags had just completely fallen apart. That his security in the familiarity of his bag was no longer going to be familiar. He was literally beside himself. Panicking with the thought of having to "start over".
He just wanted what was set in his mind. His expectations for his bag were to last forever. Even after finding the exact same Batman book bag (in black instead of gray), he simply could not get over the fact that he wanted his old, familiar book bag. Even though something SO MUCH BETTER is now within his grasp...a BRAND NEW shiny book bag!
He is slowly coming around, but what a battle of the mind. To let go and will himself to be grateful for what he DOES have and letting go of the past or unrealistic expectations of the present.
Hmmm...can you see where I'm going with this post?
How many times do we sit around and mope and complain about all the things we feel like we are entitled to? All our unrealistic expectations, all while preaching the provision of God and how He knows what is best for us.
If we truly believe that God has our best interests in mind when creating our life journey, don't you think that we can praise Him, even when our expectations are not met? Even if the outcome of certain situations is different than we expected? Most likely there will be something SO MUCH BETTER right within our grasp, if only we can let go of what we always thought our lives would look like and grab ahold of the plan that God has already laid before us.