I feel like I'm standing in the middle of a whirlwind. I'm staring at life scurrying all around me and I can't seem to keep up. I don't even think I want to keep up. I kind of feel like our lives are standing still while shoppers are getting ready for Christmas and people are rushing off to work.
It's kind of strange to explain. No, we're not wallowing in self-pity, nor are we depressed...we are just indifferent to life right now. Things that used to matter so much all of a sudden seem so silly and irrelevant.
Josh made it home to the rest of us (minus Alethia, of course) but we are together, again, as a family.
We are slowly getting back to life as normal, but normal will just never be the same as it was before September. We don't want normal to be the same.
My mom is here to help us gather our lives back together here and she let Josh and I get away for a coffee date this afternoon. Josh and I both agree that we are so not feeling this Christmas season. Sure, we know it's more than the gifts and Christmas trees, and we will always come back to the true meaning of Christmas, but life goes on outside of our family and the extended family continues to live life as normal. But for Josh and I, this Christmas is different. We both looked at each other saying that we agreed that this year needed to be different...somehow...we just don't know what that "different" needs to be yet.
Living in Uganda for 2+ months really makes you reevaluate wants vs. needs and things that are truly important to you and your family. We don't want to quickly forget the life we lived in Uganda, or the way those people served and gave of themselves from nothing.
Anyway, as I creep back over here to the life we left behind, we want to be forever changed!
We are continuing to keep our adoption blog going. Feel free to grab the code on the right to link to our adoption journal to share our story and to help you remember to pray for our sweet Alethia. We'll be keeping you up to date on any new information on our case as it comes.
Thank you for holding us during this time of transition:)